because things happened................
and people change.

i didnt want things to turn out this way either. but i have to admit, im still not over it. and i cant.

im sorry.

Others opinion of me doesn't have to become my reality. True enough, i choose not to bother. I don't care what you think, what you say, or whether you hate me or not, i don't live to fucking please you.

this picture, means a lot to me.




so does this.

For the two consecutive weeks, I got my off and rest day on a Monday and Tuesday. How sucky does that feels. And in addition to that, Im working afternoon shift all the way. I dont know whether to be happy, sad or angry. But then again, attachment means probation period. If I cant do this now, what happens when I step out into the real working world. Cmon Syikin, bear with it, for another six months. On a random note, Im still unsure whether Im gonna stick to hotel line. Should I? Or not? Long hours. Cannot tahan lahhh.

Even how bad my shift appears to be, and I was contemplating on whether I should plan my week well or go on sulking about it. and of course, this smart girl (yg tk boleh masuk dblO because her birthday is coming in two months time, this is random by the way) choose to make the best out of it. On monday, which happens to be Faizal's off day, I dragged him to grandlink and we karaoke-d for four hours. Cheap cheap, good good mah. On tuesday, nothing much but just hang around town. And on wednesday, ladies night. But, faizal is sickkkk ): Why ah, why must it either be me or him who gets sick on wednesdays. It was a last minute trip to zirca, which he insisted on going (because he knows how bad i wanted to club eversince it dragged from after Raya, the start of my attachment till now). But we didnt stay for long, I cant bear to see him being there, despite being sick.

P.s: I have it all typed out. Now it's only you and me. Not your girls, not my girl, and not my boyfriend.

you said, nothing changes.