This post goes out to you.

Months have passed. We might have move on with our own lives, our loved ones. Sadly but true, there’s no you or me to share those moments. Shits happens. And idk whether to stay or go. Because of what happened, i don’t talk to my bestfriend, i’ve made more enemies than friends, and your friends hates me for the fact that i come and go in your life.

And because what happened is partly due to my ego, lemme apologise to you. What happened made me open up my eyes. But maybe it took me some time to listen to my heart because EGO is blocking my way. In life i learnt, that in relationship, and in friendship, ego and ignorance wont bring me anywhere.

I remember the time when i celebrated my awesome nineteenth. You were there, the girls, ira and raudah were there too. What more could i ask for. The thought of you making an effort to be there and celebrating it with me wont go away. How can i possibly throw all that away?

To put it simply, i cant afford to lose you, and faizal. Cause you, have always been there. And he came in later, and showed me the meaning of love. Life would be much better if i could have you both. But the last thing that i don’t want to happen is, to become a complete stranger to you.

Don’t worry about my boyfriend. I’ve talked to him regarding this matter. He might need time to adjust, but he’ll be alright.

Happy belated 20^th, BBG.

(i know i looked ugly in this photo. but it means so much to me. cause i have you, and the girls with me, on my birthday.)