My birthday was a blast.


I was half-hearted to go when raudaaah told me that she cannot make it for the night. And was pissed because rehearsal ended so late. Bodoh, suruh org report by 4.30 but the whole thing starts at 8.30. Nbcb. We didn’t stay till the end and went off after our item, which apparently was the last therefore it didn’t make much difference. Rushed to mrt to meet ayu, kesian dia kene tunggu for an hour or so. Trained down to cq. Why we didn't cab down? Cause we'd rather spend the money on drinks than cab fare, kan iraa? Heh.

Suddenly, while queuing at zirca, raudaaah and syilaa appeared out of nowhere. I was speechless. All i could do was hugged them. Here comes the touching part. I cried when i hugged syilaa. Idk because i was too excited or i missed her so much. They gave me my presents. I got my watch which i told syilaa about (thanks babyg!), a soft toy and a card. And again i cried after reading the card. B! You made me cry a lot ehh! Lol.

Enough about that, it’s party time! Ayu, iraa and i went out to buy drinks. Bought Smirnoff and settled down somewhere. We went back in at 1.30 am and couldn’t find raudaaah and syilaa. We didn’t have our phones with us and iraa suggested to call raudaaah. We met at the locker area and raudaaah told me syilaa left. I was sad to hear that but its okay b, we can party some other time tgt! Hehe. We just started from where we left, remember? More to comeeee, ((((((:

The night was awesomeee. It felt complete cause i have my girls with me although syilaa had to leave early. Even though the surprise was for me and to celebrate my 19th, i hope you girls have fun too. I will be looking forward to more party sessions with you girls. Idk how many times i’ve said this but i’m gonna say it again, TY GIRLS AND ILYYY.


Dear babyg, ty for everything. I know despite whatever shits that has happened, i still turn to you. Idk why no matter how hard i tried to stay away from you, be it months or years, i can’t. I just cannot bring myself to hate you. It’s easy to forgive, but hard to forget, kan? That’s why i chose to stay away from you (at that point of time.) i hope the shits that we went through, the time-off, made us a better person and understand each other better. You know i love you b. ♥♥