Had another sister’s outing with kakak. The plan was to actually find our belated birthday presents that we owed each other. Hers was like months ago. Haha. But eyy, we can’t seemed to concentrate the moment we stepped into town. Masok isetan jer,

That was only the starting. Then we went to have a drink at shaw house mc cafe before proceeding on to our window shopping. Went to check out the price for a loewe clutch which cost 400 plus plus. Went to coach, there are a few which caught our eye but the price didn’t catch our eyes. Hahaha.

We then took bus because this sister of mine has wild thoughts of going clubbing on a Sunday. Precisely, expression priceless (-_-). I already told her, Sunday = no crowd = boring. And we don’t even know whether they’re opened. The worst part is, semua tutup. I already expected the worst but kesian kakak aku. Hahaha. From Clarke quay, to boat quay to chijmes and finally she changed her mind to sheesha instead. Chilled at al-majlis until eleven and bus-ed home. Why bus? Cause i feel like emo-ing. Hahaha. Tkla! Cause i took concession what and mana tau dlm bus ade lelaki handsome ker? Oh tk ehh? :D

Party-ing for the past three weeks make me realise something. That there’s more to life other than brooding over the past that is definitely not worth it. Boys (who never fails to disappoint me) and party-ing all night assured me why I don’t need a man. Just like the song goes; “I will survive” eventually. 2010’s coming and I guess next week will be the last time that I’m gonna party for 2009. But at ph this time round. For now, I gotta agree with you bbg, I’m contented with what I have, now. My girls, the boys; great party people. They don’t ruin me, instead they take care of me. What else could I ask for?

It may sound as if I’m addicted to club. But I hope not. May this be just a temporary getaway from all that has been happening. No doubt when party’s over, the problem is still there, with no solutions. But if this makes me happy, why not. I am just enjoying my life while I still can.

This is meant for raudaaah. B, i know last night sucked for you. But fuck that aside. It ain’t worth it. You got us, remember? We’ll be here for you. Have a safe trip. We’ll be waiting for your return!

On a random thought, it’s kinda funny now that we went party together.

My birthday was a blast.


I was half-hearted to go when raudaaah told me that she cannot make it for the night. And was pissed because rehearsal ended so late. Bodoh, suruh org report by 4.30 but the whole thing starts at 8.30. Nbcb. We didn’t stay till the end and went off after our item, which apparently was the last therefore it didn’t make much difference. Rushed to mrt to meet ayu, kesian dia kene tunggu for an hour or so. Trained down to cq. Why we didn't cab down? Cause we'd rather spend the money on drinks than cab fare, kan iraa? Heh.

Suddenly, while queuing at zirca, raudaaah and syilaa appeared out of nowhere. I was speechless. All i could do was hugged them. Here comes the touching part. I cried when i hugged syilaa. Idk because i was too excited or i missed her so much. They gave me my presents. I got my watch which i told syilaa about (thanks babyg!), a soft toy and a card. And again i cried after reading the card. B! You made me cry a lot ehh! Lol.

Enough about that, it’s party time! Ayu, iraa and i went out to buy drinks. Bought Smirnoff and settled down somewhere. We went back in at 1.30 am and couldn’t find raudaaah and syilaa. We didn’t have our phones with us and iraa suggested to call raudaaah. We met at the locker area and raudaaah told me syilaa left. I was sad to hear that but its okay b, we can party some other time tgt! Hehe. We just started from where we left, remember? More to comeeee, ((((((:

The night was awesomeee. It felt complete cause i have my girls with me although syilaa had to leave early. Even though the surprise was for me and to celebrate my 19th, i hope you girls have fun too. I will be looking forward to more party sessions with you girls. Idk how many times i’ve said this but i’m gonna say it again, TY GIRLS AND ILYYY.


Dear babyg, ty for everything. I know despite whatever shits that has happened, i still turn to you. Idk why no matter how hard i tried to stay away from you, be it months or years, i can’t. I just cannot bring myself to hate you. It’s easy to forgive, but hard to forget, kan? That’s why i chose to stay away from you (at that point of time.) i hope the shits that we went through, the time-off, made us a better person and understand each other better. You know i love you b. ♥♥

Blow the candles baby, cause it’s your birthday. Happy Nineteenth Nurul Asyikin! You’re a big girl now.





So ya, as midnight strikes, I turned a year older (not exactly, I was born at 20 17 hours. Heh). So many things happen throughout; be it good or bad. But it definitely made me stronger, and wiser in making decisions, choosing paths in life and bearing the consequences.


I still remember how I celebrated my birthday a year ago. Cheesy cupcakes which said; HAPPY 18TH SYIKIN. Thanks to her, I will not forget 09/12/08. Those sweet moments that you left me were unforgettable. I used to have a best friend, we were close, very close. Too close to the extent of lying for the sake of not wanting to hurt the other party's feelings and sacrificing the friendship for other’s happiness when we know deep down we love and will definitely miss each other.


Last Friday was Zirca with raudaaah and friends. It was FUN, kan kan kan? Cause at least, I managed to forget you for a while. Anw, managed to sleep for barely two hours. Then off to work, till closing.


I managed to gain what i’ve lost. Part I and II. (((:


Dear S, idk why, but you’ve changed, for the better. I can see you trying to make an effort, and after all these while, after I tried to stay away from you, after what have happened between us (you know, i know), you are still here, patiently waiting for my return. And no amount of words can describe how thankful and grateful I am to you. My love for you never changes. I have always loved you, and always will.

From, your favourite girl. ♥♥


So yesterday, cabot halfway, cause I hate John Chan’s class. Had lunch at mcd with d’yraa. Dragged ourselves back to school to attend ISF rehearsal. Later at night, Hasiff told me to meet him at subway and brought me all the way to admiralty park until we reached the international sakura and all I did was whined and pester him to tell me where we are heading to. We ended up at lawn, which was when I saw Shida, Naresh and Niaz. Touching kann! They came to celebrate my birthday in advance. Aww, so sweeeeet.

Ty guys for everything.